Disturbing the Universe.

Sometimes, I’d like to remind people one thing.

Just one thing, and I know if they keep that in mind, everything in this fucked up world will be okay.

I want them to know that behind everything that they can see in me — beyond all these t00-good-to-be-true glamor and stuff –everything that you see in me — everything.

I’m still a child.

I’d still want to dance in the rain – regardless if anyone’s watching. I want to feel that I’m at liberty to do things I want, and not be cautious enough to care if I would hurt someone or if my actions would affect someone else’s life. I miss the feeling of being able to be at your 100% self and not give a damn – to anyone – at all.

I still want to feel that someone out there would give his best to protect me, to cover me from all the pain this crazy world can offer. I want to feel that.

Seriously.

* The deal is to talk about 15 people without mentioning their names. *

1. I love you – forever. I know sometimes it seems like we’re so close to breaking up, I know that sometimes I become so much of a pain in the ass, but still, I know you love me and I will always always always love you, no matter what. Mom said I’m a good daughter. No. I am a daughter with a good boyfriend.
2. Sometimes, I feel that our friendship is going to the pits — I hate it when we it takes weeks before we get to talk to each other again — and sometimes, as much as I would like to doubt the friendship, I know that beyond the distance and all else, we would always be best of friends.
3. I miss you. Sometimes I wonder what could’ve happened if things stayed just as they were before. But at the back of my mind, I’m happy everything led us to where we are right now.
4. I’d fight for you. I promise to be the best I can be for you.
5. I promise I’d make you proud.
6. I know you hate me. FYI. I hate you, too.
7. Hey bitch, I know you’re freakin jealous. Get a life and leave mine. If I haven’t made it clear enough, YOU are not welcomed here.
8. Uh-oh. Karma’s about to get yah. Run!
9. You think you know everything about me? I mean, after all these years, don’t you think I’ve changed… a lot?? Don’t flood me with those “remember when..” lines, I don’t buy it. It makes me wanna laugh.
10. I still do the things you used to do before.
11. You thought I changed because of you – hellshit no. Stop claiming things that aren’t yours in the first place. Haha. Loser!
12. I’m sorry for what I did to you way back highschool. :p
13. I liked you before. You had a girlfriend. Buti nalang! Haha.
14. I wish I have your eyes. Ganda.
15. I’m about to lose my patience with you, konti nalang.

25 Things You May Not Know About Me.

1. I eat lemon/calamansi with salt. I remember, when Mom buys oranges and lemons at the same time, there’s a tendency for the oranges to rot, while the lemon would not even last a week. Sometimes I dip it in salt with pepper.

2. I don’t eat vegetables. I used to be zero-veggie person, until Bob made me eat some vegetables every once in a while. When I was younger, I would separate vegetables from ground meat, just so I won’t be able to taste it.
3. The only dish I know how to cook really well is Sinigang. (Or so I think)
4. I believe that a fish should be cooked either by frying or grilling it. Just the two. I don’t eat Sinigang na Bangus.
5. I eat green mangoes almost every day. I don’t eat ripe mangoes.
6. I dip green mangoes in vinegar with bagoong. Spicy bagoong. And then dip it in salt.
7. I read novels (400-500 pages) in one sitting.
8. When I was a kid, I wanted to be a teacher, when I was in Elementary I wanted to be a pediatrician. When I was in Highschool, I wanted to be a newscaster or a lawyer. Now, I want to be a psychologist. And a photographer. To date, none of these was ever accomplished, yet.
9. I watch movies a lot – and then go to IMDB.com to read about the goofs and trivias – and then watch the movie again.
10. I don’t settle for something for a very long time – my favorite today may be my most hated thing for tomorrow. I easily change my mind.
11. I type 70 words a minute but type 40 when I don’t know what to type. I type 30 wpm right now, I think.
12. I live with Bob – most of my friends think that’s a foul. And I don’t care.
13. I can’t dance, but I was on the cheering squad when I was in highschool. One of the choreographers eventually became my boyfriend but that’s a part of my life I want to forget. Literally forget.
14. Although I still can’t forget how that choreographer boyfriend spelled HEART as HEARTH and sent me emails with wrong grammar and stuff.
15. I hate people who sends me notes with wrong grammar. Although mine is not entirely perfect. I just hate receiving mails like that.
16. Most of my ex-boyfriends threatened me that they will commit suicide if I continue with the break-up. All of them are still alive and it makes me wish they are men with words of honor.
17. I owned six or seven blogs before this, and most of them are private blogs that I don’t know the URL and password anymore.
18. I have an extreme disliking for Manny Pacquiao. I turn off the TV when he’s in it. I don’t know why. (and don’t even begin talking about Nanay Dionisia……)
19. My mom tried to enrol me to different talent workshops – ballet, piano, painting – none of them ever brought any interest to me. But I remembered going to them because of the new things I get to have after enrolment.
20. I have more than 30 draft posts in this blog – blogs I never got to post.
21. I spend more than 2,000 pesos in load/airtime credits every month. I hate texting. No, that’s not sarcasm. I really hate texting, that’s why I call most of the time, hence the big load amount.
22. Over a year ago, I weighed 90 lbs and my waistline was 27. Now, my waistline is 33 and I don’t even have the courage to step on the weighing scale.
23. I have two dogs – both are extremely afraid of me when I say, “Sinturon?”
24. If I don’t end this post right now – my draft post count would be 31. I have short attention span.
25. It took me three hours to type this entry.

Although I know Dad’s gonna buy me an Ipod touch, I always thought it’ll be for the coming weeks or so pa!

This morning, he kissed me and said I only have to wait a few more days!!

Shet! I don’t know how to express how happy I am right now!

Spoiled much??!

SObraaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!

This is bullcrap.

I have a headache, my eyes hurt, from staying in front of the pc all day long, and YET I can’t sleep!

Wheeereeee on earrrthhhh is the sleeppp fuckin fairy??!

Pardon my French, Undersecretary Espele Sales, but taxing of books and telling people that they are “noneducational” is just plain fuckin bullshit.

And another excuse me for this..

“According to Sales, this lacked a comma after the word “books,” which meant that what was tax and duty-free was only books used for book publishing.”

Oh Lord.

And another:

Booksellers responded that this went against half a century’s common understanding of the treaty; did this mean everyone had been wrong and Customs suddenly right? Sales replied, “Yes.”

Anung balak niyong gawin sa Pinas? sa mga Pinoy? You’re taxing literacy?! Are you out of your mind??!!

Iba talaga ang Pilipinas, ibang iba. (ALL SARCASM, ONCE AGAIN, INTENDED!!!)

I would much rather have regrets about not doing what people said, than regretting not doing what my heart led me to and wondering what life had been like if I’d just been myself..

and you know what I hate more than being sick?

It’s the people who still try their best to bug you even when it’s clearly stated in your YM STATUS na important messages lang. Hello people, I’m in for a decent chat, pero no bugging naman please.

Make reading a habit po.

and when it bites,

it hurts.

it hurts so bad.

ready ka na ba? :p

Today, I made a decision in the crucial two minutes of my life. It’s like my heart spoke up on my tongue’s behalf. Words came out of my mouth before I even thought of it.

They say the worst decisions come from split second decisions, and I’m about to prove them wrong.

Lol.