Oct 9 2007

nang mangulit si elay..

Pilit ko siyang tinanong, nung minsang napagtripan ko lang mangulit… Maraming tanong sa isip ko na hinahanapan ko ng kasagutan. Pero madalas di ko maitanong. Sa ganung pagkakataon bigla lang lumalabas yung tapang ko. Kaya sinamantala ko.

“Mahal mo ko kahit na?”

Ngumiti lang siya. Natunaw na naman ako. Muntik ko nang makalimutan ang tanong ko nung hinalikan niy ako. Pero, gusto kong malaman. Para alam ko kung ano yung mga bagay na pinagtitiisan niya sa ugali ko. Ayaw niyang sumagot, wala daw siyang maisagot. Siyempre, makulit ako. Pinilit ko siya.

“Mahal kita kahit na sinusungitan mo ko pag inaantok ka na.”
“Mahal kita kahit na iniiwasan mo kiss ko pag tulog ka.”

Hays.

Mahal ko siya kahit na malakas siya humilik.
Mahal ko siya kahit na daig niya pa ang bata kung mangulit.
Mahal ko siya kahit na sinusungitan ko siya.
Mahal ko siya kahit na iniiwasan ko ang kiss niya pag antok na ko.
Mahal ko siya kahit na madalas kong sabihin na di ko siya mahal.
Mahal ko siya kahit na di ako naglalambing.

Sa lahat ng rason na alam ko, at sa mga rason na di ko alam, isa lang ang sigurado ako. Mahal ko siya…

Dahil, Kahit na, O kahit ano pa ang kasunod. Mahal ko siya.

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Oct 2 2007

8 happy months, counting…

she woke up right beside him, his face was the first thing she saw when she opened her eyes. to her, it’s the best feeling in the world. nothing could ever beat the feeling of knowing you have everything you’ve always wanted right beside you, first thing in the morning.

they’ve been in love for eight months now. eight months of pure bliss, of happiness and endless trials. they’ve been through it all. they’ve had their fair share of ups and downs, and they managed to rise from it all. people tried to put them down, but they failed. no, they can never bring a good couple down.

she looks at him, fast asleep, and thinks of all the good times they’ve spent together. she smiled. all the laughter, the kilitian, the kulitan and everything else unmentionable. the past eight months of her life was full of blessings, blessings she doesnt even know if she deserves.

she’s been in love with the same man over and over again for the past eight months. and she knows she’d forever be.

tomorrow, she would wake up in his arms again, and that would be an entirely new experience.

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Oct 2 2007

drama mode ako. hehehe. pagbigyan niyo na.

kanina pa ko umiiyak.

everytime nagtetext yung kapatid ko, naiiyak ako talaga. ngayon ko lang sobrang nadedefine yung sinasabing “tears of joy”.

ganito kasi yun. di kami close ni joy. i mean, oo given mahal na mahal namin isa’t isa. there are number of times na pinagtanggol niya ako at pinagtanggol ko siya. pero after nun, away away naman kami.

mas madalas kami mag away kesa magkaintindihan, and the truth is, di ko na matandaan ung last time na nag i love you siya sakin or ako sa kanya.

but then, mahal ko siya tlaga. she’s the only sis i have. and no matter what, kung anu man o sino man ang manakit sa kanya, alam ko pagtatanggol ko siya.

ayun.

kanina pa siya text ng text, punta daw ako sa dorm niya sa recto kasi may gift daw siya para samin ni bob. sinong ate ang hindi maiiyak naman?

grabe na to. automatic na yung luha.

hays. gumaganda ng gumaganda ung relationship naming magkapatid. and i hope tuloy tuloy na to. gusto ko maging responsableng ate para sa kanya. i wanna be able to give her the things she wants, di lang yung mga kailangan niya.

waaaa.. ang drama ko. wag sana siya mapadpad dito, kundi buking na ko. hehehe.

at para dagdagan ang drama, check nio yung dating dating post ko dito, na kelan lang nireplyan niya.. happy birthday.

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Oct 2 2007

note to self.

Dear Elay,

Another day opens up for you. Just a little reminder to keep you sane for the day:

Appreciate even the littlest things you have, the simplest gifts you receive, sometimes, great joy comes in small packages. Pure joy is received only by the open heart.

Never ignore the everyday blessings of the Lord. Magnify the blessings and belittle the trials, you are stronger than anything that may come along your way. Chinny chin chin up, girl.

Smile. You’ll never know how powerful your smile is. It may brighten up someone else’s day. Smile. It’s the best gift you could give to someone who’s feeling a little down today. Help them in your own way. Smile and make them smile too. Go ahead, smile to that girl who makes you feel belittled.

Acknowledge every person’s purpose in your life. They all came in for a reason. Good or bad, they have a mission to make in your life. Be thankful of the people who’ve hurt you in some ways, they have made you stronger, they have taught you lessons without you knowing it. Be thankful of the people you meet, of the friendships you make and keep, they are God’s blessing to you.

You’re not perfect. Don’t hate yourself for being human. There are certain things that only you can do, and there would be some other things that you can’t do. Don’t despise yourself for the things that you don’t have the power to. Do not compare yourself to others. Their journey is different from yours. You may thread the same path, but believe me, the journey would never be the same.

You are a unique person. See the good in you. Feel the good in you. Do the same for others. Have a blessed day ahead!

Love,

Katrina Ellaine

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